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[novapsyche]

It has been three months since I last took any DXM.

I don't suffer from cravings anymore, not really, not the urgent, compulsive feelings I used to have. I do still think about it, though. Often in a wistful way. I miss it.

I hope in a few more months I will be in a position where I can use it again in a ceremonial context. Because what I miss most about it is the connection it gave me to what I sense as the Divine. In the proper context, I think I may yet be able to use DXM in a responsible (i.e., non-recreational) fashion.

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[rikhei.livejournal.com]

I'm very proud of you. *hugs*

[novapsyche.livejournal.com]

*hug* Thank you, dear.

congrats.

[bloodlikerain.livejournal.com]

I can't even begin to say that I'venot done any drugs for 3 months. I try, but, it can be a sirens call.

at least i'm doing less...and with more caution.....

for many "addicts" drug use feels like connection to the divine. I know it does for me. that peace that i can't seem to obtain other wise, the high that takes me in it's warm comforting arms.

i'm sitting at work, envious of your strengh, but feeling like i'm feigning just the same

Re: congrats.

[novapsyche.livejournal.com]

I can't even begin to say that I'venot done any drugs for 3 months.

Well, I can't say that, either. :) I haven't abstained from everything. (Perhaps I would be prouder of myself if that were the case.)

Cautious is good.

[quility.livejournal.com]

WOO HOO!!!!

I'm so afraid I'm going to get addicted to vicodin.

[novapsyche.livejournal.com]

You are in pain, dear. As long as you use it in its recommended parameters, I'm sure you will be fine. Don't let your fear keep you from pain relief.

[xiombarg.livejournal.com]

Congratulations. I'm proud of you.

I think you can connect with the Divine in another way.

[dionysus1999.livejournal.com]

I'm with the x, but then you already know that. My magickal teachers were all against mixing spirituality with drug use.

[novapsyche.livejournal.com]

I realize your stance, and I respectfully disagree. In fact, to me it makes more sense, at least ethically, to use substances magickally than recreationally.

Most people who are against the use of entheogens are against drugs of all sorts. Those who are okay with the use of drugs, that they would be against the use of entheogens doesn't make any sense to me.

[sarahmichigan.livejournal.com]

It was one part practical and one part ideology. We had a couple of coven members who were recovering from addiction, and it was important to them not to have mind-altering substance use going on in ritual space when they were there.

The other rationale is that drugs are the "easy" way to reach enlightenment, and that it's preferable to teach yourself to touch the divine or alter your consciousness sans drugs FIRST. Then, if you want to experiment with chemically-assisted magical practice, go ahead. But it's nice to have access to non-drug methods because the ritual drugs might not always be accessible, but the non-drug techniques are.

I'm not saying I wholly agree with that rationale, I'm just saying that I think it's coherent, rational, and reasonable (for some, anyway).

[padpedpladuk.livejournal.com]

So proud of you oh fellow lj-user-with-whom-I-share-the-largest-number-of-lj-interests !

Oops - quality not quantity!

[padpedpladuk.livejournal.com]

astronomy, cosmology, electromagnetism, energy, enlightenment, etymology, gravity, history, jesus mysteries, laughing, light, love, nondualism, peace.

[zhenzhi.livejournal.com]

what is dxm?

[entheo.livejournal.com]

dextromethorphan, a dissociative.

[zhenzhi.livejournal.com]

i think i'm getting old, lol!
*.... that's why that cough mix i bought in thailand made me feel so nice :-)*

[redivivus-fate.livejournal.com]

You know that I probably relate to this as well or as better than anyone else could. It has been almost 4 months for me, I think. I can't go back in any way though. If you do decide to do so in a responsible fashion, I wish the best for you.

[kittenkissies.livejournal.com]

No other way to access the Divine?

[novapsyche.livejournal.com]

I'm not saying there isn't any other way.

[entheo.livejournal.com]

it is the connection it gave me to what I sense as the Divine.
why not nitrous or ketamine or ibogaine or another glutamate NR1A antagonist (out of all of those I realise that only ketamine is a sigma-1 agonist while ibogaine is a sigma-2 agonist).

[novapsyche.livejournal.com]

If I could try K, I would. Inhalants scare me, though.

[entheo.livejournal.com]

I had a FOAF try K down in Mexico where they could get in over the counter. while the thought of most inhalants is scary, nitrous is considered fairly safe in that they use it at dentists, on pregnant women, etc.

[novapsyche.livejournal.com]

True, and if I had a medical professional administer it, I'd be more comfortable with it. However, I've seen many warnings about the "balloon" method, severe cautioning about how not mixing enough oxygen into your airflow will cause swift damage. As a newbie, I obviously would be at a loss to know if I'm doing things the right way.

[entheo.livejournal.com]

the most fun way Ive heard of for having nitrous is via rebreathing. Ie one of a pair of people takes in the balloon, and then mouth-to-mouth contact with another person and they breath it in while keeping lip locked. Much fun.