Spiritual Journal, 2/2/02
Feb. 3rd, 2002 12:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
novapsyche10:31 a.m.
It was the first time
my body had been offered something better
than orgasm.
My anaesthetized musculature
had amnesia of the flesh.
When you've taken every kind of pill,
(the bigger the headache, the bigger the pill)
Nothin' seems to ever cure your ill....
Sitting crosslegged in darkness,
all that existed were the music,
me,
and the phantom digitals of the stereo.
Each second of the CD
took five seconds to elapse.
I drifted along on the arhythmic piano,
and I happened to wonder
if I had fallen into a trance.
Program, de-program, and re-program....
I gasped and I waited.
But the dreaming did not break.
My self-awareness was wonderfully inconsequential.
Outside of time, outside of history,
outside of civilization, deep inside myself:
Her Most Wicked Lady offered refuge.
I was a melting dichotomy of thought.
And laughed at the sluggishness
of time.
10:52 a.m.
I just realized that my first significant DXM experience had Eureka moments about the nature of light as well as about the nature of time. No wonder that trip was so influential to my thinking, my worldview, since then.
It was the first time
my body had been offered something better
than orgasm.
My anaesthetized musculature
had amnesia of the flesh.
When you've taken every kind of pill,
(the bigger the headache, the bigger the pill)
Nothin' seems to ever cure your ill....
Sitting crosslegged in darkness,
all that existed were the music,
me,
and the phantom digitals of the stereo.
Each second of the CD
took five seconds to elapse.
I drifted along on the arhythmic piano,
and I happened to wonder
if I had fallen into a trance.
Program, de-program, and re-program....
I gasped and I waited.
But the dreaming did not break.
My self-awareness was wonderfully inconsequential.
Outside of time, outside of history,
outside of civilization, deep inside myself:
Her Most Wicked Lady offered refuge.
I was a melting dichotomy of thought.
And laughed at the sluggishness
of time.
10:52 a.m.
I just realized that my first significant DXM experience had Eureka moments about the nature of light as well as about the nature of time. No wonder that trip was so influential to my thinking, my worldview, since then.